Staring at the walls to pass the time. Pinch myself, make sure I'm still alive. I'm not alright. It's become a disguise. Friends and family, I'm losing all ties. Staring at the walls to pass the time. Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive. I've been here before. I will survive another month under gray skies. I'm holding on as tight as I can. The monotony never seems to end. Every day feels the same. Every day I think about the place I'd rather be than here. I've been here before. I will survive another month under these grey skies. We've carried each other through and over the seas. We live for nights like this. The ones we won't forget. Forever remembered. We live for nights like this. The ones we'll always miss. I hope to open my eyes to see this picture. I'm throwing it all away. I hope to open my eyes to see this moment that I should treasure forever. Staring at the walls to pass the time. Pinch myself; make sure I'm still alive. I'm not alright. It's become a disguise. Friends and family, I'm losing all ties. I'm holding on as tight as I can. Coming home, I don't know when. I'm holding on as tight as I can. I swear, my dearest love, I woke up tired today, more so than yesterday. How that's possible, I don't even know, nor do I wan to. It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained. My body aches but I'm used to feeling this way. Seventeen down, seventeen to go. That's not so bad, right' I think of home often and of you even more. Yesterday I saw the sun shining. It appeared for a few minutes just after two. For a moment I found myself smiling, as if those short rays, of light were enough to get me by. Maybe that was enough. Thank God, I needed that. I surely needed that.