I couldn't find You in the sermons

I couldn't find You in the songs

I couldn't find You Sunday morning

And that's when I knew something had gone wrong

I couldn't see You in the reading

I couldn't hear You in my prayers

I couldn't feel You in my feelings

And I began to fear that You weren't there

Then I thought I heard a sound

Somewhere in me

You said to stoop way down

And that's where You'd be

I never thought I'd find You here

Way down in my shame and fear

I never thought that You'd draw near to this

My faithlessness

I never thought to look for You

In this ditch that I've been crawling thru

I never thought You'd listen to the plea

Of the non-religious me

They told me they'd be praying for me

And then they showed me to the door

They made it clear that they'd ignore me

Until I wasn't struggling anymore

That's when I started feeling guilty

This must've been my fault somehow

If only I'd been stronger, maybe

I would not be in this mess right now

Then I saw a nail-scarred hand

Bleeding on me

You said, "I understand"

And You showed me mercy

I never thought I'd find You here

Way down in my shame and fear

I never thought that You'd draw near to this

My faithlessness

I never thought to look for You

In this valley I've been crawling thru

I never thought You'd listen to the plea

Of the non-religious me

If we have no room for strugglers

Where are they to go for answers'

Didn't Jesus ask His Father for another way'

And what does that say

About the way we handle

People when they're faith is fragile'

Even Jesus slipped and stumbled when He

Carried the cross

Now the curse of the law is gone

And in it's place: amazing grace

Blessed are the poor in spirit

The Kingdom will belong to them

Your love is strong but still they fear that

You would never let them in

God, I am a true believer

Help me overcome my unbelief

I stepped out on the raging water

And now I'm sinking in the sea

I never thought you'd find me here

Way down in my shame and fear

I never thought that You'd draw near to this

My faithlessness

I never thought to look for You

In this valley I've been crawling thru

I never thought You'd listen to the plea

Of the non-religious me