Take a leap. Reach the non-freedom. Hold what you can in the religion of choice. Explain to yourself a reason for being. Swim for the shore that can never be found. You're gonna drown. Must be worth something. Rape with the eyes. Devaluate yourself through a "liberated" mind. A final experience is 'truth", have a good ride. Forget the feeling next month, swept away by your deterministic tide. If you were only worth, what you wish you could be. The decision to refuse your life, doesn't allow you to see. You are westernized, so you are "civilized". You never thought that popular culture could bring you down. You got what you prayed for, the ever failing wisdom of self. So, are you happy with what you have found'